sunny smiles
blushing balls.

dont feel like blogging
but i should anyways.
school was damn slack today..
which leads to my current state.
went j8 after school with kiat+rol.
yes you heard it right..
havent been to j8 since like..i dont know.
yonks.
ate at pastamania and walked around.
j8 has changed TREMENDOUSLY!
i knw i sound like a cavewoman but really.
haha and we went into these weird shops with comic books+vcds on one piece
couldnt believe my eyes.
haha.
took 156 home
and i was SO thinking about stepo pepo all the way back.
in sec2, when i still had a life, we'd always take 156 back together after town or whatever and talk sososo much.
reminisce :(
been thinking a lot recently.
(about things thatre not related to brain cells murderers like additional mathematics or physics, thank you very much)
i hope i do stop being oh so EMO-TIONAL.

prelim oral results were like a total letdown.
dont know the exact marks cos ms jacob was determinded to abide by the rules and keep us in the dark.
but i know the gauge
and it sucks la.
no shit.
you'd think its just oral..how hard can it be right?
but everyone's grades are hovering over the same marks i think.
so.

sigh.
whatever.
and im fucking demoralised by the amath papers.
>:(

omg d'you know phoebe from friends is 41 years old??!
gosh.
she acts like shes 3.

anyway.
sidetracked.
7 tests next week.
trying to survive down here..
and our DEAR school aint helping.
just shoot me and let me curl up and die..

but nvm.
there's always thursday to look forward to :)
GRINS LIKE AN IDIOT.

maroon 5's she will be loved is so good.

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

lovin' you is easy..cos youre beautiful.
+youre in all my thoughts and all my dreams+
i miss you sweetheart. and shall continue doing so. -mwa.

just finished typing 2 letters..
my playlist is still vertical horizon and jet.
haha. and its making me oh so EMO-TIONAL.
sheesh.

i miss steph :(
and shuqi..
and my sec2 days.
where did it all go?
dissipated.

o-kay. under the covers now..

you're just the best i ever had

okay i change my mind..
i like my present layout more..most in fact.
awake at this unearthly time after my oc :)
this episode's pretty darn good.

-

marissa : i love you
ryan : ..thank you..
marissa : ..you're welcome?

-

ryan : i love you.
marissa : (smiles) thank you.

-

so cute!
hahaha.
went to my darling's place..was held hostage! -laughs-
she looks so darn cute asleep -grins-
gonna print physics notes and then..under my covers :)
night all.

constantly girl, youre on my mind
and girl, i think about you all the time
even though words are hard to say,
girl i miss you,
never thought i'd feel this way

when you take the centre stage of my life.

-// i drive myself crazy
wanting you the way that i do

yay! new layout :)
this one's so similar to my previous ones.
which is why i prefer the previous kate bosworth one.
still changed cos it was growing old and..the blue was kinda depressing.
haha. aint mischa pretty?

ladidums. shall go do the english essay after lunch..
mina was telling me about the track and field meet.
and she has happily describing the details
and suddenly the stir of esctacy was palpable!
down here in my room, me sitting on the swivel chair.
:(
now i wish i were there.
im so fickle minded!
grr.

i want!
to go to the track and field meet!

gotta make this quick..need to catch the season finale of smallville!!
my lana!!
haha. anyway just came home..
so not going school tmrw..was slightly feverish and had flu and headache and blah and im totally fine now but i really need a break from hectic schooling. renegades to my system.
besides, i know nothing about atmosphere for chem..
only studied electrolysis and particulate naure of matter?? haha.
like shit, was too tired to mug anymore.

i feel like watching bring it on.
man, watched it for like six times, i think.
can never get enough of it
i should get the vcd myself..
haha.
my zits are like OUT OF CONTROL.
i cant even bear the sight of my reflection
i try not to steal glances at the mirror.
haha.

currently only on chapt8 of da vinci code!
i know! im so slow..
gonna indulge in it tmrw :D :D
okay off to catch lana!!

ooh its on the radio!
oh baby i surrender to the strawberry ice cream :)
okay didnt catch the rest of the song.

'tatas!

^x being fifteen.

english oral was bad.
talked about the most ridiculous things under the sun.

suddenly thought of that vertical horizon song! so i came online to download it. havent touched my books at all since thursday..shitshitshit. getting to it now.

my life is in a blur.
i need to get a grip!
grr.

and we were going so fast.

-// i think about it when i hold you.

grr. dont like the new innovation of blogger.
just managed to change everything back to normal.
anyway.
im wayy to lethargic to study twelfth night ._.
all this excess mugging is getting to me.
i used to not even touch my books for an entire week
but now we're forced to stare at our books 24/7
talk about burgeoning constraints.
this is nuts.
i think they aim to transform us all into geeks.

fun suckers.


and then my day of the week arrives tmrw ;)

Took my hands,
touched my heart
Held me close, you were always there
By my side, night and day
Through it all, baby come what may
Swept away on a wave of emotion
Oh we're caught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile I can hardly believe that you're mine
Believe that you're mine

10 days

i really love thursdays.

it marks the end of all tests for the week.
though it'd be the day for me to mourn over the horrid tests,
it still means a little break.

and spending quality time :)

watched chronicles of the riddick and it was really sucky la.
stupid lame show.
didnt even know what was going on on the screen.

AND also
its The TV Day.
everyone has to tune in to channel 5 and watch The OC.
its like, a thursday basic necessity.

-laughs-

okay i know i sound like a freak la.

anyway. gotta fastforward
have to complete my share of the cme project (for which the deadline is today)
haha.
AND also
satisfy my thursday basic necessity.

:)

passerby um, thanks. vindication. ashlee simpson ; pieces of me. vanessa carlton ; pretty baby. and ordinary day. evan+jaron ; crazy for this girl. yea..i think thats all.

steph! gonna get your letter done asap :) was damn happy when your letter arrived!! smiling like an idiot.. anyway. as you can witness for yourself, my stupid PIMPLES are SOso raging!! miss you too.

nana hey peachy bitch. havent replied for some time. so sorry! busy with tests and what not. haha cant wait to see you flaunt your piano skills on sat. break a leg! im sure you'd be great. and sometimes, you realise that the world is not as superficial as you thought it was. you just have to wait for things to turn better :)

yay! my limewire is finally functioning -beams-
okay lame.
but i really felt like just exulting over here.
haha.
just completed the new editions of tee designs for gen+jo.

Seth : And they don't know anything about you, they don't know that in third grade, everyday you shared your lunch with this little squirrel, who's lunch kept getting stolen by a fat squirrel.
Summer : I hated that fat squirrel.
Seth : And they don't know about how your hand shook when you had to read that poem aloud in class.
Summer : What poem?
Seth: 'I Want To Be A Mermaid'
Summer : That was like, in sixth grade, I barely remember that.
Seth : "I want to be a mermaid, to swim along the sea, and I want all the fish..."
(Summer kisses him on the lips)
Seth : "...to come and play with me."

i know. its like i have nothing better to do than be obsessed with the oc.
but i am :)

ladidums.
'off.

just decided our successors for sj
er i dont even know how does mine look like :|
seems like all are bad comments.
haha.
the juniors got so emotional!
so sweet y'know.

stressed ;
have SO much to mug for.
5 tests every single bloody week.
all of which im gonna flunk
and get more and more demoralised.

and i really hope
stupid limewire is functioning.

my life sucks.
badly.

if only exams dont exist
and i just spend my life with you.


Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

its just things i do

waiting for the oc to begin.
math test today was rather .. so-so i guess.
though i didnt finish the last part of the last question.
which really sucked cos it wasnt a hard question.
and the ss!! god. crammed so hard, thinking it was structured.

and my face is LITERALLY a pimple plantation now.
not kidding.
i look horrid .. grotesque, even.
-screams-

okay im like, stuck here, not knowing what to say
pondering whether i should resume blogging.
or continue to stare blankly at the screen
racking my brains,
trying to put everything in words

unsuccessfully.
haha.
suddenly no longer pensive.

what crap..there wasnt any oc that day.
they should REALLY stop shuffling the slots for my favourite show.
people are gonna like, start a petition. or protest along the streets
so one day the mediacorp people would look out of their window and get a shock of their lives. then we'd show them that the avid oc fans are not pushovers!
haha.

what the fuck is wrong with limewire?
ive been trying to get jet like WEEKS ago and till NOW the files are still corrupted. i think im the only person on earth still tootly trying to catch it on perfect10 and exulting when i do. and theyve never heard of Smash's Talk to Me. they give me Video-faces of death..! okayy..madness.

anyway.
this hols has been pretty rotten..
got so bloody pissed+annoyed with my parents over
A PAIR OF FUCKING KEYS.
happy youth day to me.
im so gonna get swollen eyes tmrw.
now da wont be the only one..
and her sister wld be wondering why her students suddenly have such identical eyes.
okay that was really lame.
i just dont think my dad should accuse me of not bothering, of being flippant.
maybe he should start bothering himself.
but then again, i'd rather he stay put and not poke his nose into my affairs.

hah. i feel so childish now for kicking up a fuss on that.
but whateverrr..

I get moody and messy
I get restless and it's senseless
And you never seem to care
When I'm angry you listen
When you're happy it's a mission
And I won't stop till I'm there

Fall, sometimes I fall so fast
Well I hit that far don't crash
You’re all I have

It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know?
Everything I'm about to say
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face
I hope it never goes away


anyway. recap..

woke up late and happy on friday..went to meet aileen for um, lunch or whatever it was..stoned around..went borders! :) oh! and i bought a top from this new shop with pieces by local designers! the shop's pretty cool but the assistant kinda rambles on incessantly..heh. met da+mina+dinah+part of the sixers at crepes after that. took ugly photos (whts new) but was quite funny la. took even more DISGUSTING neos and the sixers left..so we (the chanmalis apart from tings) walked around aimlessly..wait i meant AIMLESSLY, literally. saw steph+sq at topshop!! -squeals- IMISSTHEBABES!!!! haha. and they were telling me about you know who's non existent tummy..i know -nods sadly- haha. sorry i cldnt stop to talk! heh. after we left wisma, we were EVEN MORE AIMLESS so we ridiculously stood at the escalator stoning our lives away and smsing. yeeea. then dinah+mina decided to leave so i was left with da and we both wanted to SIT DOWN badly but we just couldnt think of where..and when i was talking on the phone we sat on the cement stairs at esprit?! haha. saw wynnie tay so manymany times..too many times..anyway. went heeren fountain in the end and..im glad i talked to you girl. havent caught up with you in ages. hope youre gonna be okay -hugs- some people are just so BIATCHY..
anyhow. da left after that and i went to meet aileen (again) and her friend candice..walked around..wait i meant AROUND. haha. in the end had dinner at nooch with candice's friend too! er forgot her name but shes so cute! and really funny too with all her gestures. she looks like a japanese. i stuck out like a sore thumb :| being the only non indo-chinese there. they were happily communicating in some weird foreign language that was beyond my comprehension. im so gonna pick up a new language after my o's! haha. and i did something super embarassing when we went to the loo -hides face- i shall not embarass myself here! hahaha. was damn stupid la. ANYWAY. went back after that.

yesterday i towned again..watched spiderman2 in the evening and it was fab :) damn sweet and kirsten dunst had SUCH A GORGEOUS wedding dress. heard she wasnt wearing undies in her flyaway skirt! -looks at aileen- haha. stoned my afternoon away..walked A LOT though. weird that my legs dont ache like they always do. haha WALKED to ps (eye opening experience for me..i should really stop being lazy and start walking more) and took the train the long way. practically did nothing! heh. apart from think. and think. and think..

my brains are getting more and more fried
my emotions are constantly swinging high and low
my eyes are growing puffier and more tired than ever.
this gotta be bad for me.
i just want to sleep now.

today's all angsty and felt so weirded out.
much better now that its all ebbing away..
dont feel like talking about it though.

oh my god limewire is going on and on at a snail's pace.
i'd be in my coffin before i can listen to keane.

she was the one to hold me
the night the sky fell down

okay i just cheered up!
:D
ladidumsidum.

wondering whether i should go school tmrw?
only 2 lessons i think..
maybe i cld meet the chanmalis after sch.
if theyre all going out, tht is.
FINALLY sleep late!
HAHAHA.
i think i contracted some epidemic virus that makes me so happy and bloody crappy.
but i just decided that i shldnt act like my life is bleak just cos of a couple of tests.
-effulgent smile-

shall go eat my ban mian that my mum bought!!
OC ltr ;)

the past week has been horrid
i dont even know where to begin.

its all a flop.

-screams-

IMMENSELY covetous for yins' state of mind.
i guess im just not a math person
as i have proved to myself for numerous times.
the impetus didnt seem to help at all.
im just gonna flunk my o's and..be a school dropout.
cos im just plain dumb.
fuck.
:(

dont know what you got yourself into
//i love the way you laugh.